Bleeding Love

2010 has been a bit of a rocky year. And it doesn't help that in one month it will be ten years since my family was in a roll-over accident and both my parents were killed. I often laugh and think, "Well, if I survived ten years and got through all the emotional turmoil that comes with watching your parents bleed to death on the side of the road, I can handle almost anything." And I guess God says "Yes, you can, here are some more trials to work through and grow from!!!" You can't become "gold" unless you walk through the fire, but it would be nice if there was a drama-draught for once!

However, in the end I am determined to rise above it all, the cattiness, the hurt, the pain, the friends who have proven their true colors and are now no longer a part of my circle, the sickness, the stress of trying to make it as a designer and business owner. A lot has been thrown my way, but I shouldn't complain because my life is still amazing and I don't believe in whining and sulking in self-pity.

Last Saturday, I went with one of my best friends, Kealey, to feed the homeless downtown. It was a tremendously rewarding experience. To serve and give back to those who have nothing, really opens your eyes to the fact that no matter how much I have lost, I still am incredibly blessed and I still have a tremendous amount to be thankful for. These people have NOTHING, and they were the most gracious and kind individuals merely because we gave them some hot food.

It's hard because I get extremely annoyed at those who don't rise above and live life with morals, integrity and kindness but in the end I am going to be the bigger person and continue to bleed love....

In the words of one of my favorite singers of the moment, Leona Lewis:

"Bleeding Love"

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love